The Future

I have always wondered what future awaits us. It is weird right now, trying to think about being in college, working, married and with kids, or even being old, like my grandfather is now. Right now, our everyday life includes school, friends, and family. It is fun, but I remember myself saying when I was little: “I hope I was done with school and I was already an adult, that way I could do whatever I wanted to do.” Now I truly understand that life as a grown-up doesn’t work that way. We won’t be able to do as we please because we will have stuff to do. Right now, if we don’t hand in a project we have to make a huge effort in order to not flunk the class, but we can just remediate the class later on and it’s not that big of a deal. As adults, not handing in some work can end up in permanent suffering for you and for your family. You could be fired and end up in a very bad situation. In high school, life already got tenser. If we don’t do well enough here, we could end up being rejected from the universities that we really want to go to. That could cause our careers to fail and would mark a difference in our life. I know college will be even tenser than high school, and once we are out there in the real world, the real thing, we cannot make the childish mistakes that we are allowed here at school. I hate it when it hits me that my parents won’t be there forever but I know it is true, and I hate to imagine the days of their deaths. It is also frustrating not to know if we will or won’t end up getting married, and how will my wife be like. Will I have any kids? Will I be able to raise them as a proper father? What will my job be like? Will I be successful? Are my friends right now going to be there in the future or will they be living somewhere else, barely remembering my name while I hang out with my best friends who could be today nothing more than a random boy that I see walking on the street? It is hard to think about this stuff, and even imagine your friends as grown-ups and trying to imagine how their wives would be like, or their kids. It is sort of scary even, but we don’t know a thing about the future. It is so random and at the same time it depends so much on us. To obtain our dream futures we have to do some certain stuff, but we don’t know what stuff we have to do, actually nobody knows…Our future depends on us, and at the same time we can do very little to change it until we are there.